Choices

   I have been through my trials, and tests, and climbed some treacherous mountains. With hospital bills totalling nearly 3 grand looming over my head on my part time income, I am giving it up to God. I am learning that he will totally provide in ways I never thought possible.  Not to step on any toes, or brag (I think I have been doing that a lot) but I must say that through it all I am in a perpetual good mood. Ddespite everything that's happened in the past 2 years nothing could bring me down at this point in my life. I think I have found my meadow. There isn't a complete absence of stresses and hardships but I have made a choice to have a positive perspective about them. My wonderful friend Kim gave me a book while I was pregnant called The Noticer by Andy Andrews. If anyone is struggling with seeing the good in trials and hard times you have got to read this book. It's not overly spiritual but I saw so profoundly why bad things happen to good people. It is all about the perspective you have on a situation. It is a choice and it is my choice to view difficult times as a learning process to become a stronger more balanced woman.
      I love my job because each day when I get there and open up my email there is a devotion and a daily prayer in my inbox. God will always find a way to speak to us if we are willing to listen. I can truly feel God's love for me and looking back on my trials I see why I went through what I went through.
      I pray that as Royce grows he sees my peace and understands that it's all due to the Lord's goodness. My prayer request for now is that I only do things that are according to His will. I just want to follow Him in every aspect of my life. He is SO GOOD!
    Royce just got some mean hiccups sitting here with me so I need to wrap it up. Praise God, be joyful!

Traditions

     The same thing happens every year for me as the holidays come around. I've never been very into the whole shopping aspect of it but I always have great anticipation of all my families traditions. We get our tree the weekend after Thanksgiving, put up all the Christmas decorations including our handmade stockings from Grammy. We pull out our stack of Christmas dvd's and cd's and start listening to and watching them all over again. On Christmas morning Allie usually comes in and wakes everyone up much too early and we exchange our gifts followed by a country brunch.The same routine every year. It is so comforting to know what's to come.
     Now that I have my own little guy I want to start our own traditions so that he feels secure and comforted as I always did. I am looking for any unique, fun, and preferably cheap traditions that I can start with him. This year, being his first, he won't be able to participate but I want pictures to show him someday of when we started doing our special tradition. I am loving the "elf-on-the-shelf" idea. So cute and encourages good behavior! Even if it's a little thing like leaving a little home-made gift for one another under the tree, I want to teach him family values and the importance of being thankful for what you have. If anyone is doing something sweet and special that you wouldn't mind passing on I would love to hear from you.
    This year I got Royce his very own Radio-Flyer classic red wagon. Cannot wait to pull him around in it and watch him grow to being able to pull it on his own. Year one with him is already flying by way too fast. Almost 4 months old! Wow...okay I am going to go cry now.
    Thanks everyone! Happy Holidays! XOXO

In My Rythym..

     I could not have asked for a more perfect little angel baby. Why did God chose to be so kind to me? I'll never know the expanse of His love. Royce is such a go-with-the-flow kid. He is handsome. He is sweet. I could go on and on but it just sounds like bragging. I assure you it's all fact. haha
    So it's been a while since my last post but I now feel well established in my routine. Very well established actually. I feel like I have such a good grasp on my day to day schedule that my stress level is at zero. If I had known this was possible for me while I was pregnant I would have been much less freaked out about being a mommy. I owe my success to God the Father, the book "Baby Whisperer" and my mother who is the biggest supporter that I have.
     I am reminded by either Jesus voice or my extremely loud conscious that it is a must to live in every moment I am awake. It is far too easy to miss a smile, a clinch of that little hand, or a sweet sigh.When my little one is growing inches before my eyes I can see how easy it is to let the days fly by without hardly remembering what I've done. I try to soak up and drink in his warm little body curled up on my chest, his velvet head pressed up to my cheek, every chance I get. God, it is sweet. No, having a baby at a young age, unmarried, living at home is not ideal for most but how perfect of a plan. I am the best version of myself when I am with him. God has given me Royce as my own personal life saver, keeping me in constant check with myself. I want to give Royce the world, for I believe he deserves nothing less.
     Praise God in all I do. Next on the list is finding a decent husband :) And when I say decent I mean absolutely gorgeous and perfect. haha
    Till then...
    I will be enjoying every second of motherhood...
    It is a gift..