Six days over-due. It's really not as awful as I thought it might be but I am getting nervous that he is going to be this massive baby. Each day that goes by he's growing more and more. It's incredible to see how my body has managed to accommodate him so comfortably. At least I know by Friday I will have a baby boy in my arms. Praying that I don't have to go on pitocin and possibly have to get a c-section. I would LOVE to avoid that. All in God's hands.
So, that's my physical state. As for my emotional state I have been on a bit of a roller coaster. The uncertainty with finances is definitely taking a toll. I had a huge mental break down two nights ago thinking how unprepared I am to be a mother. Yikes!!! The longer over-due I am the longer it is that I can't work...I did not plan ahead very well. I just keep praying that God will provide and get me through. It is looking like I'm on my own for supporting Royce which scares me but at least I will be able to say someday I got through some really tough years! I found some affordable insurance for him and a really great pediatrician. Only the best for my little Royce. So soon till I get to meet him face to face. Fingers still crossed I go into labor naturally. Getting a pedicure today just might do the trick :)
You're doing great!!! Healthy Families is one program that offers cheap/free insurance for kids under 2. There is one program too where its free. It might be healthy families. I think there are two main programs out there. Love the peace that you're carrying! I look up to you and continue to admire your strength!
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